Rock bottom as the condition for something to open
Trauma and crisis — abuse, accident, breakdown, war, extreme loss — appear in nearly one in four accounts. Rock-bottom experiences seem to collapse the ego's grip, sometimes opening into something beyond the ordinary self.
What's notable is that many of these accounts don't frame the trauma as the cause of awakening but as the condition that made it possible — the ordinary self couldn't be maintained any longer, and in that gap, something else became available.
I had nine years of trauma and sexual abuse, not just sexual abuse, but I had mental abuse.
I saw that there was nothing wrong with me. That I was born an aspect of divine source. And that it was the confusion, the misalignment, the unhealed trauma of the adults that was the reason for the abuse.
I come from severe ritual abuse. I have a teenagehood and early adulthood full of multiple sexual traumas and attacks. I've been beaten, I've been raped... So I'm as dark as it gets.
And so, that was more so was kind of reenter myself, figure out what's going on in my head, my life, all the changes with what's happening, whether it's a spiritual awakening, whether it's a midlife crisis, a mental breakdown.
Experience types that appear most often in accounts with this trigger.
Other triggers that co-occur most frequently in the same accounts.