Extended periods of physical inability during the process
The process is not only psychological. About one in seven accounts describe extended periods of physical inability: being bedbound, unable to leave the house, or barely able to function physically for months or years. The body reorganizing itself can be physically incapacitating.
This is distinct from ordinary illness: the person isn't sick in any diagnosable way, but their body requires a level of rest and care that makes ordinary life impossible.
When I'm on, in front of a group, or even in a session with an individual, people can barely even believe what I'm telling them about my physical energy.
I was still pretty determined to try and do things and so a lot of times I was physically unable to, but then there was still shopping and cooking and those kinds of things and trying to have some sort of social life on some level, but it was obviously greatly reduced to what it was.
But so I kind of just went up and down, and was able to get balanced here and there, and then it just kept, I'd go through periods where it just, I mean, I was bored by it, where I was debilitated, and honestly not even, barely able to take care of my regular stuff and my son and everything.