Language built for ordinary experience breaks down when experience exceeds it
The most commonly reported integration challenge, appearing in nearly half of all accounts. Language is a tool built for ordinary human experience. It breaks down when what happened exceeds that range. Nearly half of accounts include some version of 'I couldn't tell anyone' or 'there are no words for it.'
This isn't ordinary difficulty expressing oneself. Several accounts describe the recognition itself as incompatible with language, not just hard to put into words, but fundamentally outside the subject-object structure that language requires.
That is indescribable, that has no words, that has no sense of separation or self-perceiving anything.
It's just been one of the best blessings I can even say, no words can say.
I hadn't experienced that before, but everything I read about it, it is true now, that bliss and that absolute, it's just beyond words, bliss and beauty, it just brings one to tears.
I realized, in my words, I really didn't exist, that I was a fiction that I had made up for myself, that what did exist was this infinite, indescribable flow of energy, the vast energy of the cosmos.