The opening itself as frightening — loss of self indistinguishable from annihilation
The opening itself can be terrifying — a loss of self that is indistinguishable, at first, from annihilation. About one in eight accounts describe significant fear or terror during or after the shift.
Several accounts describe the moment of ego dissolution as the most frightening experience of their life, with the mind interpreting the loss of self as death. The recognition, when it arrived, came through that terror — not despite it.
I'm free within it. Anger is free here. Jealousy is free here. Fear is free. I'm often utterly and totally terrified — but it's just Terror moving through me.
And it's not to be feared because it's our true nature.
And that brought about a tremendous pressure within my being, not the kind of terrorizing, fear-based, monumental, intense manifestations of earlier in the journey, this was just a weight that I was carrying around with me that just ...
There was no fear that existential crisis or terror.
Experience types that appear most often alongside this.
Other integration challenges that co-occur most frequently in the same accounts.