The opening itself as frightening: loss of self indistinguishable from annihilation
The opening itself can be terrifying, a loss of self that is indistinguishable, at first, from annihilation. About one in eight accounts describe significant fear or terror during or after the shift.
Several accounts describe the moment of ego dissolution as the most frightening experience of their life, with the mind interpreting the loss of self as death. The recognition, when it arrived, came through that terror, not despite it.
I'm free within it. Anger is free here. Jealousy is free here. Fear is free. I'm often utterly and totally terrified — but it's just Terror moving through me.
There is medicine in this." And when I sat with that fear of darkness, what came to me was that I feared the feminine.
And it's not to be feared because it's our true nature.
Fear and terror go away with the dissolution of the individual ego.