The opening itself as frightening — loss of self indistinguishable from annihilation
The opening itself can be terrifying — a loss of self that is indistinguishable, at first, from annihilation. About one in eight accounts describe significant fear or terror during or after the shift.
Several accounts describe the moment of ego dissolution as the most frightening experience of their life, with the mind interpreting the loss of self as death. The recognition, when it arrived, came through that terror — not despite it.
I'm free within it. Anger is free here. Jealousy is free here. Fear is free. I'm often utterly and totally terrified — but it's just Terror moving through me.
I think being able to bring all the feelings, all the fears, all the things we are afraid of, ashamed of, can we bring those in and learn how to be present with that and that is again it's a skill.
The second that I had my Awakening the grief of my Father which was so heavy was gone — my fear of death gone, gone, gone, gone. Imagine how beautiful that is — to not be scared to die out of nowhere, to realize the truth that we never die.
I feared the dark feminine specifically, that aspect of feminine consciousness that is wild.
Experience types that appear most often alongside this.
Other integration challenges that co-occur most frequently in the same accounts.